Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Cardiology appointment today

Today is my cardiology consultation. I'm so scared, anxious, nervous, and sick. I have the migraine from hell and I couldn't sleep last night. I woke up and layed there thinking about a lot of things and ended up having a panic attack. I'm so tempted to just not go as I really don't want to know what's going on. I know it could be nothing, but with my family history, it is very likely it is something and I don't want to face that. My husband has to work since he started a new job, it wouldn't be good to take time off already. My grandmother offered to come down from Orlando and go with me, but she would do more harm than good really.

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Not such good news

I finally broke down and went to the doctor yesterday. I've not been feeling well for a long time and haven't gone because I am scared of what I would find out. I went through so much with my mom and seeing her feeling great to being told she had cardiomyopathy and then going downhill quickly. She received a heart transplant on July 30, 1998 and died on April 15, 2000, two days after my 26th birthday. My mom and I were so much alike. Even when we were out together everyone either thought we were twins or at the very least that we were sisters. So, for some reason I have always been terrified that we would have the same health issues.

So, I went to the doctor yesterday and of course my blood pressure was sky high. She gave me medicine for that and did an EKG. The EKG was abnormal and had inverted T-waves, which could mean several things. For some reason, she kept asking if I had ever had a heart attack. Of course, I haven't that I know of. I would think I would know if I had, but I suppose I might not if it was something mild. I've had chest pain before and just thought nothing of it. She couldn't tell from the EKG exactly what is wrong with my heart, but there is damage so I have to go for a stress test. So, I have to call Monday to make the appointment for that.

Now I'm wishing I wouldn't have gone to the doctor. This is the can of worms that I didn't want to open. I would rather not know if something is wrong. I would rather just live my life and die when it's my time. My mom went downhill so quickly with her diagnosis and went even faster after the heart transplant that was supposed to make her better and save her life. I'm not going through all of that, it isn't worth it for me. So, if there is anything serious wrong, you won't be seeing me on the surgery table. I've never had surgery and don't plan on having heart surgery. I know I'm putting the cart before the horse here and this could be something minor, but I knew there was something wrong before the doctor even told me and I just know it's not anything minor. I really wish I wouldn't have gone yesterday.

Friday, March 24, 2006

Just remember, 1-2 pounds a week is normal!!

For some reason the past couple of days there have been a lot of posts on the NSBB with people upset and discouraged because they've only lost (for example) 13 pounds in 6 weeks. I posted this over there this morning and thought I would post it here in case anyone actually reads this blog and missed that post.

PLEASE keep in mind that the normal, safe, average weight loss is 1-2 pounds a week. Yes, some weeks you may not lose any weight at all. Some weeks you might even gain a pound or so due to TOM. DO NOT get discouraged. There is no reason to as you are right on track and doing great!! Everyone loses differently. The more you weigh, the faster you will lose weight at first.

You also lose more your first week (normally) due to water weight. If you only have 30 pounds to lose from the beginning, you aren't going to lose as much as someone who has 130 pounds to lose. DO NOT let it discourage you. Also make sure and take measurements. Many times you will lose inches and not pounds. You are still technically getting healthy.

I don't necessarily have a goal weight I want to be at. I just want to be healthy and feel good. I suppose I'll just know when I reach that point. Good luck to everyone and don't get discouraged!!

Thursday, March 23, 2006

What decade are you living in?





what decade does your personality live in?


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Personal DNA Map ... pretty accurate

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Monday, March 20, 2006

Manic Monday

Last week was pretty good. Tommy started his new job and he seems to like it a lot. He's getting used to being treated like an adult at work and not a number. It will take some time since he was only a number for seven years. The attornies that share the office with the ones my husband works for are personal injury attornies and they have an ad on TV. I used to make fun of their ad before he started working there because they look so serious in the ad and it cracks me up. The attornies that my husband works for are medical malpractice defense attornies so I find it odd that they share office space with those that are on the plaintiff side of things.

My work has been slow. Nothing in the queue for today so far. I have to go to the post office and mail some Ebay stuff anyway so it's okay. This better not become an every day thing again though or I'm going to have to look for another job. That's one downfall of being an MT, work isn't always consistent. Mondays after the pay period ends are usually slow because everyone works over the weekend to get in their line count. Damn slackers.

NS is still going good. I'm down another 2 pounds so I'm at 22 pounds lost so far. I've already met the goal I had set for our vacation June 1st (20 pounds) so I'm going to try to lose another 15 pounds, which means I have 13 pounds to lose by June 1st now. I should be able to do that. I've only had one major hiccup and that was eating a Boca pizza. I thought it was 280 calories for the whole thing and I noticed later it was 280 calories for 1/3 of the pizza, so I ate 840 calories for dinner Saturday night. Ooooops. I would have rather had real damn pizza if I was going to screw up that royally, but I'll survive.

That's about all for today. Going to run to the post office and mail this crap. Have a great week!!

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Sugar-free PhillySwirl popsicles

I just wanted to let those who aren't aware of these know how good they are. They are only 10 calories each so count as a free food for those of us on NutriSystem, not sure how many points they would be for those on Weight Watchers, but I've heard they are zero points. There was an insert in the package that they aren't taking off well because people see that they are sugar free and think they aren't good, but let me tell you, these things are delicious. I've posted a link at the bottom of the page to their website so you can see if they're in a local store. If they aren't, please ask the store manager to order them. If sales don't pick up, they may not be around much longer and there aren't many other good options out there for those of us who are diabetic or can't have sugar-filled popsicles. They are also celiac friendly.

http://www.phillyswirl.com/

Monday, March 13, 2006

Yahoo, it's Monday!!

Tommy started his new job today. I guess right now they have him filing and answering the phones and are teaching him the ropes slowly. He keeps forgetting to answer the phone because he's busy filing and not used to answering phones. Poor guy. He was really nervous today as this is his first new job in 7 years. He hates being the new guy and out of the loop. Hopefully he will feel right at home there soon.

I had gained two pounds, but lost it this week so I'm still at 20 pounds gone. I'm surprised that I lost the weight after eating out Wednesday night. Maybe it gave a boost to my system, who knows, but I'm happy with it. I'm not rushing and I know 1-2 pounds per week is normal and some weeks I won't lose. I just want to do it healthy and learn a new way of life. I feel a lot better, my sex drive is much improved, and I have tons of energy.

My sister called today and the baby has flipped head down so he's right on track. Right now, he weighs 5.5 pounds and she is 35 weeks pregnant. She said that her ankles are swelling a bit, but she's just sitting down and propping her legs up when she starts to swell. She has also stopped working Saturdays, which is good because she was alone in between patients and we were worried that she could go into labor alone. I'm so excited that Justin will soon be here. That's about it for today!

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Outsourcing/Convergys/IBM/General Motors rant

This was forwarded to me by my husband. It was written by someone that works for the same company he does, but in their Portland, OR location.
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GM has always used a third party customer service provider to handle

customer interactions. From 1999-2005 this company was SITEL. GM signed a

five year contract with SITEL, valued at an estimated $100,000,000 per

Year. It was outsourced, but at least GM kept it in the states. An American

pride based auto manufacturer should have American employees help their

loyal American customers. GM set up call centers for SITEL in Portland,

Austin, Tampa, and Detroit. A Texan who is extremely proud to be and buy

American wouldn't take too kindly to the idea of talking about his broken

Silverado with a Phillipino in Manilla.

During 2005 SITEL decided not to bid on a new contract with GM. GM wanted

the outsouce structure set up differently, and SITEL claims it did not have

time to prepare for it. Setting up new business plans takes months, you

can't make huge moves without heavy financial planning.

IBM stepped in, and decided to handle all of GM's customer interaction.

IBM, then hired third party customer service companies. Convergys took

Portland and Tampa. This was announced to SITEL employees in October 2005.

As of January 1st, all of us (600 in Portland) would be terminated with

SITEL. SITEL was a pretty shitty company with terrible medical benefits and

no opportunity for advancement. The pinched every penny and never, ever

gave raises. Most employees were not sad too see SITEL go. There was the

lingering question though; how could a company underbid an entity as cheap

and shitty as SITEL?

During the next 2 months we were all assured Convergys was awesome.

Everything would be better. If we didn't apply to be hired on at this

glorious new Convergys - SITEL would fight us tooth and nail if we applied

for unemployment. We got daily voice mails and emails demanding we apply,

and lists posted of people who didn't apply.

Most of us did apply, and quickly realized we had been had. Convergys is

extremely disorganized. They don't show an interest in changing the site

much, or conveying plans and policies to the new employees. The Convergys

health coverage was twice as expensive, and covered half of what SITEL's

shitty medical coverage did.

A month and a half into our Convergys experience, we were told that They

were shutting down the US call centers. They are outsourcing their

outsourced business to Argentina, The Philippines, and Nova Scotia. This

was on the Front page of the Oregonian's business section February 16, 2006.

2,000 employees will be out of work some unannounced time in 2006. 2007 are

when the very last employees will be out.

Now we see how a company can underbid another equally cheap company. Hire

workers in foreign countries for much less pay, and no benefits. Try to do

it quietly, and fire Richard Campbell for going to the Oregonian about it.

Teach the new employees in The Philippines and Argentina to speak with

American accents, and give them fake names like "Bob Smith".

The worst thing about it is they lied to the loyal employees of the GM

contract. Many of us had been there when the SITEL sites first opened up.

Some asked in the Meetings "Why did you demand we all apply and promise us

a career if you were just going to fire us?". The answer to that question

is obvious - they wanted to use us up and throw us away in a few months.

What a bunch of half-assed fucking liars!

Convergys had to have been planning for this since at least mid 2005. You

just don't open up call centers across the globe without a lot of planning.

They told us they weren't planning it early. Again I say, what a bunch of

fucking half-assed liars!

While Convergys is the main culprit, GM has a lot of the share of blame

too. They signed a contract with Convergys and IBM to handle their

customers. GM knew they were going to outsource it off shores and cost

thousands of loyal employees their jobs. These contract negotiations are

complex and heavily detailed. There is no way in hell they completely

omitted the part about closing the US call centers down, and then said

"Surprise GM!! We're moving the business to The Philippines!!".

I'm tired of Loyal US employees getting fucked over and stepped on by

corporate greed. I'm tired of seeing jobs for US companies go offshore to

sweat shops. If you are to, spread the word about what GM/Convergys/IBM is

up too. Consider this the next time you buy a new vehicle, or when you call

GM because your having problems with your GM car.

A couple of other stories I found on the internet that were interesting.

Click links or copy/paste.

http://www.wweek.com/editorial/2944/4276/

http://www.tampabaypartnership.org/press.asp?rls_id=1053&cat_id=1&

More good news!!

My husband has his second interview yesterday with a law firm in Hyde Park and he was offered a position!! Of course he accepted and he is going to start there monday. He went into his job yesterday and gave notice. Today is actually his last day as he has some paid time off still allowed to him and they are letting him take that on Friday (tomorrow). We went out to Sam Seltzers and celebrated. Yes, I ate stuff that is not NS approved, but it's the first time in two months. I had a 7 oz filet mignon, veggies (steamed), a little bit of their fried onion (like a bloomin onion), and two rolls. I was stuffed, but it was good. I don't regret it at all. I also had one drink to toast my husband. I'm so happy for him. The best part is that these attorneys specialize in medical malpractice defense so with him taking a medical transcription course, the two jobs will benefit each other. Life is looking good these days!

Monday, March 06, 2006

I'm so happy for my husband!

I signed my husband up for M-Tec MT school. I'm so excited for him and hope that he enjoys being a medical transcriptionist as much as I do. Hopefully it won't take too long for him to finish school so we can finally move out of Florida and find a home in the middle of nowhere. The shipment is supposed to go out within 48 hours so hopefully he will have it by next week, when he is on spring break from his college classes.

Today is my grandmother's 73rd birthday. I just called and wished her a happy birthday. I guess my sister and brother-in-law were taking her out to dinner at Outback Steakhouse. We were all supposed to take her out to eat this weekend, but I guess they decided to do it themselves. Whatever. We're going to the racetrack in Orlando Saturday so we'll probably stop by before we go since we'll be in Orlando anyway.

NS is going well. I didn't lose any weight last week, but I'm not letting it bother me. My husband lost 7 pounds his first week. It's a lot easier with us both doing the same plan. I went and got my hair cut Saturday and cut it really short. I like it a lot better. Here is a picture from when I started NS (with long hair) and one from Saturday (short hair and 20 lbs lighter!).


Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Blah

I haven't felt too well this week so I haven't been posting. Not that I think anyone reads this or anything anyway so it doesn't really matter. Anyway, I've had a migraine this week so feel crappy. I finally have health insurance so I really need to get into the doctor. I hate going to the doctor because I hate being weighed. I know that is so stupid to let my health suffer over stepping on the scales. As a medical transcriptionist, I know there are many people out there who weigh more than I do and I shouldn't let it bother me, but it does. Tomorrow I have to bite the bullet and schedule an appointment. I know I have hypothyroidism and I need meds to get my metabolism going. I know it will help a lot with trying to lose weight too. I haven't had a GYN exam in probably 5 years and that is really bad. I really need to get my ass in gear and take better care of myself. I'm feeling like I'm in one of my depression slumps this week too. I don't know why I get like this, but I don't want to do anything but sleep. I hate when I'm like this. Grrrrr. Well, need to go drink my hot tea before I go to bed.